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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

less confident of myself



Hi my friend's .. i hope all of you have nice day


Today i feel sad and angry on my self 

this day i had Molecular Genetics lecture , Dr. W asked us question about the new lecture it's about DNA and other stuff , any way she said " if some know the answer she will be smart ..very smart "
I know the answer but i always had less confident and i though if i said my answer i will embarrassed myself and she will say i didn't understand  or may my answer will make them laugh 
after while another girl answered the same in my mind and  Dr. wardah said " you are very smart , excellent ....ect " 

i almost want cry >> maybe you think no need to cry but it's not the first time to me 
my confident of myself  is lower than you imagine 
i tried so hard before but i was  shy  and less confident like I'm putting mask in my face , until now at this moment i want cry because some time i feel I'm stupid .

i wish some day i will  be very smart, because every test i study very hard and the result is D and lots of F's 

Also i have Dr's give me F's Unfairness . before i come to the university i had lots of dreams to continue the master degree and others but with that GPA and lot of unfairness F's i will not follow my dream. 

 last hour i watched my grade and i almost cry , but i told myself why you looking at this ?!!
if God want you to continue you will follow your dream's . ^_^

next time i will tell my answer , i don't care any more if it's right or wrong the only thing i care is my confident i want it to be higher than it was before.





   كل شيء مقدر عند الله  فلماذا نحكم على أنفسنا ؟!؟
   
it's all destined by Allah so why judging ourselves ..
>> thank you my dear wafa' for your translation God bless


Tank you my friends for give me a little time from your life ..