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Sunday, February 26, 2012

Why ..


yesterday i opened my messenger after 3 months , i saw one of my colleagues i used to know them from university , the first thing she said to me after hi is '' where have you been and why you didn't call ...why ..etc ''
OK why lots of people like her? maybe i didn't want them to know news about me ! not only like this but every time i see someone they said ''why you didn't call me ......!''  why you don't kill me for not calling you ! sorry but this is my life and my choice to call or not , i don't like thier way of talking , they make me think i'm bad person!
if i saw someone after very long time i always says '' how are yoy all this time , i missed you and happy to see you '' why they don't tell me this ha ? i don't like them question me for something maybe i wanted to disappeared from them !
i'm that kind of person who love to be alone , if we saw each other that's fine but don't say '' why you didn't call?, why you disappeared ? " it's my choice why no one think this ? this is MY LIFE! if i wanted to be close to you i will but in my situation i don't like being close to them because i Always get stabbed by people i used to talk laugh with them . that's why i hate this whole thing of '' WHY ''.
not only me also my sisters are thinking like me . we don't like all the whole thing about not calling them , honestly i call them once every 2 months or more because that's me i don't like to call them over and over .
the other thing is i Hate cellphones, phones since i was a kid untill now , in my house everytime the phone rang we look to each others who's will answer it , we Hate phones.
i'm very quiet girl , i don't feel comfortable to be in places full of people , and talking to some one on the phone is big problem to me i will say ''how are you'' more than ten time if there is nothing in my minde to talk about and i look stupid at that moment... ! i don't know what to talk about , maybe you think this is not good thing but for me it's a bless , so i won't have to agree with their opinions or all thier hypocrite of being loyal for the government !.i like being alone and far away from them.i'm not like the rest of you .