from my experience after so many years i received racism almost every day when i was in school, university i learned that when someone do negative things he/she will get it back in very bad way aka KARMA. don't compare your certificate out of anger at that moment by saying how high your grades to someone failed in getting at least D even after she did her best because if you did hurt the other person your high level certificate will get less bless, don't hurt the other person who still trying to finish his study with heavy heart and she's in a level of dropping her study, if you did it you will not get a job or anything due to your certificate is worthless and God won't bless it until you apologies to the person you hurt, be supportive as much your family support and encourage you, once you do this God will open doors for you and not only one door i mean DOORS.
i know i said this before but living in a country like my country can burn, crash your dreams, your hobbies specially if you are female. day after day i wake up with hard feeling in my chest like letterly i feel like this, sometimes i cry and sometimes i try to live! yes for some people who didn't know what i'm saying they will say i'm exaggerate! it's big challenge for me to live or at least feeling peaceful. that's why i wan't to die!
writing this post at 3 a.m while my two sister still sleeping because the free time i have since i'm jobless is not a good thing, it's remind me of how much i'm wasting my dreams and how much i hate this society. can you blame me?
even if i wanted to do something there is no place to go so i can refine my hobbies or at least starting the first step of my dream. i hate how men here can control women as if we are like a walking shame in front of them if we wanted to be equal or at least have the SAME payment they get! again i hate my society.
free time is a good/bad thing we either love it or hate it but when you feel the free time is killing your skills and can change your personality into a different person you will agree with me about how much i hate it.
