.. My Grave ..

recently, the last few months i thought about my grave for long time untill this day, i wondered what will it be my first day in it?
i know people only think about doing good things in their lives so they can go to jannah(heaven) at the end. we all want this, we all want to see what jannah looks like? no one know about how jannah looks, no matter how people said No one know what it's look.
i know you are telling yourself why i'm like this? what wrong with me ..etc.
i keep thinking of my grave and some time i'm afraid of it and some time i'm not, because we don't know about if what we did in our lives is enough or not enough. can you blame me for thinking too much of my grave.

the day i'm gonna die when? who will burry me, and before of that who's gonna wash my body?. am i old or still young, lived my life with happiness or not, and after they carried me to my grave who's will go down to my grave to catch me from who is above my grave is it my father or some stranger i don't know him and he don't know me?

how are the people i knew will remeber me? i always tried to be good infront of others, i didn't harm anyone and if i did some day i apologize. i even wrote articals in wikipedia, so after i die there is somthing good i did in my life. i still send respect and love posts due to i don't want people killing each others, because at the end they will end up in hell.

how will my grave looks? is it gonna be spacious, lightsome and the most of all am i gonna be one of the people who will end up in hell?. Although in my life i do good things, pray, help...etc i still afraid of my grave. i don't know how lots of people kill and hate whoever they want, at the end maybe the person who you hate is the one who's gonna prepare you and wash your body. also the same thing for the people who will carry you and the one who will hold you inside your grave. so at the end you are gonna leave with your own bad behaviors you did when you were alive.

here in my country lots of racist i'm tired of mention this in lots of my posts, i feel sorry for them and i wish my dream come true one day and see them all togather respecting each others. i feel sorry for them because i know at the end Allah is the Only one who's gonna judge us, i feel sorry for them due to maybe their hate is the reason for sending themselves to hell!
i feel sorry and in pain when i see innocent kids learned the racist from thier parents in my country.
this life is like some kind of road we need to do good things before this long road ends, because if it ended we can't return back.
some day soon or late i'm gonna die, leaving this world, my family and my blog for ever. and i keep checking my old posts just to see if i said anything wrong to people didn't do anything wrong, i checked and i still checking but what i saw is the justice, there are people did wrong and i only confirme it.
my grave.. my grave.. i'm afraid of you ,what if  you were the one for the people who are going to go to hell in the crack of doom. but if i was like one of them i pray that prophet Muhammad will help me with his Intercession.

so people do good things, don't hate, don't steal, don't take the orphans money or anyone money, live your life in good way so you won't regret at the end.